In preparation for the day of suck, my body and psyche did its part to make sure that I was fully rested by making sure that I woke up no less than once an hour during the night. That helped. Really. Stupid body. Stupid psyche.
Then, I got up, and this server, which is where much of my online life is, was being frumple again, because of the stuff that dvorak does, and well, it's his server, you know? So, I kind of muddled through the morning until that evened out.
Then, I had an 11:30 meeting. During this meeting, 5 people were notified that their boss was being laid off. 4 of those 5 people were informed that they now report to me. That's right. For the first time in the five and a half years that I've worked at Erols / RCN, I have people reporting to me. Come to think of it, this may be the first time I've ever had people directly reporting to me. No, wait, once at Kinko's, but then they fired me and gave him my job (he was the assistant manager's boyfriend; I'm sure there were no ulterior motives there). So yeah. That was awkward, and this is weird.
Then, we had our staff meeting, which really, as far as staff meetings go, wasn't so bad.
And then, I had to go to get my annual OB/GYN exam. Lemme tell you, this is just about my least favorite thing on the planet to do. Shaking, sweating, hyperventilating, stammering, trying not to cry. Yup, that was me. And this was with a brand-new doctor I'd never met before. But, thanks to a wonderful recommendation from the lovely Jenn, I think I have found a new home for all of my female doctory needs. If anyone needs an OB/GYN, I highly recommend ANP-C (Nurse Practioner) Margaret Light. She was calm, gentle, funny, patient, caring, and very good at explaining things. Above and beyond the tension of the actual annual exam (which all looked good, though we are, of course, waiting for the result of the PAP smear), she discussed birth control options with me, agreeing that it was probably time for me to come off of the Depo Provera (it's been many years now). We discussed my fear of the return of the Dreaded Menstrual Cycle (no, really, this scares me; I used to spend 3 days a month curled into a ball in bed) and options for handling that. She agreed that the birth control method I was leaning toward was probably a good choice for me, but still gave me information about other methods, just to make sure. At no point did I feel I was being lectured to, which was really my big problem with the nurse practitioner I got switched to after the nurse practioner I loved left Planned Parenthood to be a school nurse. (That, and the rather strident manner, but that's neither here nor there.)
At this point, the really sucky parts of my day were pretty much behind me. I cleared up a couple more things at work (saying 'hee hee' to my VP on AIM was probably one of the more amusing points of my day), and I spent some time camping out in gjp's office talking with him and dvorak. Then, we fled, and stopped to do some grocery shopping on the way home (I got chicken to make chicken long rice that I still haven't made). I have spent the evening relaxing. Cider and hard lemonade and delivered Mexican food (did I mention I didn't make chicken long rice) and a long hot shower and a good bit of lolling around, and I think I've left most of today behind me. I'm still shell-shocked about having people report to me, and I have many things for work to do, but you know what?
It can all wait for tomorrow.
(Thanks so much to all of you who helped me get through today. I know I was frazzled and whiny and overly stressed, but you all handled it wonderfully, and it meant a lot to me to have you there, reassuring me.)