meri (broken_gizmo) wrote,

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Facing fears.

So, I have this weird fear, and I've decided to try to face it and conquer it.

It's a silly fear, really, and one that I have not always had, at least not to this degree.

Events of recent days have shown me how much value I can get from conquering this fear, and how much comfort it can bring me. So, I am going to set about actively trying to work against it.

The fear? I'm afraid of the phone.

I mean, not of the phone itself, but of using it. I am constantly terrified of bothering the person on the other end of the line, and this has become more pronounced by the fact that I can generally communicate with the people I care about via email or IRC or some instant messaging protocol or another, all of which can be ignored by the recipient if they choose.

But, at the same time, I've come to realize that no amount of ASCII replaces the sound of a loved one's voice, the ability to hear laughter or pain or joy. And, I miss that.

I'm going to try to overcome this, and the best way I can think of (and jehanna concurs) is to start calling the people I talk to a lot already via those electronic media. So, if you're one of those people, consider yourself warned. If you would rather I not put you on the list of victimsringees, then please let me know. I do not wish to annoy, and knowing that I wouldn't be might help make the calls. Hell, I don't want to be an opt-out caller. If you would like to talk to me on the phone, let me know, and I'll add you to the list, so to speak.

I know this is ridiculous, but it's important to me. One does not preclude the other.

Besides, I have all these free minutes on my cell phone.

Thanks, all. Talk to you soon. :)
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