It's a silly fear, really, and one that I have not always had, at least not to this degree.
Events of recent days have shown me how much value I can get from conquering this fear, and how much comfort it can bring me. So, I am going to set about actively trying to work against it.
The fear? I'm afraid of the phone.
I mean, not of the phone itself, but of using it. I am constantly terrified of bothering the person on the other end of the line, and this has become more pronounced by the fact that I can generally communicate with the people I care about via email or IRC or some instant messaging protocol or another, all of which can be ignored by the recipient if they choose.
But, at the same time, I've come to realize that no amount of ASCII replaces the sound of a loved one's voice, the ability to hear laughter or pain or joy. And, I miss that.
I'm going to try to overcome this, and the best way I can think of (and jehanna concurs) is to start calling the people I talk to a lot already via those electronic media. So, if you're one of those people, consider yourself warned. If you would rather I not put you on the list of
I know this is ridiculous, but it's important to me. One does not preclude the other.
Besides, I have all these free minutes on my cell phone.
Thanks, all. Talk to you soon. :)